Used... feels like hollow

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by Doxic, Nov 20, 2010.

  1. Doxic

    Doxic Member

    I was used for sex. All the while, I was being insulted and put down and controlled. It was my first relationship and first sexual experience, and it lasted a month. One month of utter stupidity on my part, devoting myself to someone who liked to provide me with just enough hope that he'd turn out right...but no..
    He'd tell me often that he was going to hurt me, that he was going to cheat on me, and he probably did multiple times. Did you know that when you fall in love, a part of your brain that deals with critical decisions and discernment of flaw is actually turned off? You literally become love-blind. It SUCKS.
    UGH. I just want all memory of him gone. Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind and whatnot. Damn him. He is so going to Hell. I dumped him in the end because he wanted to pretty much rape his ex and that made me realize just how fucked up he is. I've warned his past lover. We'll see what happens. So hate him.