Im no good at expressing pain. I just hurt all over on the inside. Ive been out of work for way too long, cant get into school because I made to much money. I know I sound whiney, I get that. It just feels like the world, my life, my friends, my family and the myriad of strangers are living. While I sit here alone in my empty apartment, watching and waiting for something, anything to happen. Its as if Im not real, Im just an observer here. Kooky I know, but the longer this goes on, the more desperate I get. I just dont know what to do.