I know it's been a long time since I've posted here, but I'm in trouble. I'm feeling so sad and isolated. I feel so alone. I have no purpose in life. I don't contribute to society. All I do is drain resources. I haven't had a job since March 2000 and since then I barely even leave my home. The only places I go anymore are the grocery store and my therapy appointments, and if I could stop going to the grocery store, I would. I have 1 friend. Literally. Just one. And I've never even actually met her in real life. I only have contact with 5 people - my husband, my therapist, my brother, my mother in law, and my brother in law. And I can only talk to my brother on the phone since we live in different states. My parents are both dead. I feel so useless. Directionless. I'm trapped inside the walls of my home and I have nothing to do other than clean it. This pain has just started tonight, but it's very strong. It hurts to feel useless and alone and isolated and worthless. I don't know what to do. And I can't even call my therapist because she's on vacation until the 19th. Can someone help me? Maybe help me to see something worthwhile in my life?