I feel such an idiot, and such a failure. My birthday is coming. I was meant to be something more than this, a stupid secretary, the office slave, and that's all I am. I have done nothing good all my life. I'm an idiot. My ex, I thought I was over him but somehow he keeps on reappearing year after year. I love that he's seen my job title in my email signature so now he knows for sure even if he doesn't have contact with me that I'm just a stupid failure. I know I cannot stop time. But I don't want to live my birthday. I need to not live that day, to skip just one. I need to find a solution. What a useless thread I've opened, I'm so proud of myself, such an idiot I am.