I'm so pathetic and useless not only have I been ranting to anyone who will listen for the past week or so, I haven't been supporting someone I love who has needed support too, and today I wasted most of the day sleeping because I was up til 5am trying to 'exercise' and planning that today I would start a diet. And now that today is here, I don't want to. I'm a greedy, fat pig and i want to just smother myself in food, because that's what i do when i feel bad. I hate this, i just wish it would all go away. My legs are covered in scratches from last night, just another failure, but a pathetic excuse for SI, all because i can't afford to draw blood and have lasting scars. I don't know what to do.