Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by rd9671, Jun 26, 2007.

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  1. rd9671

    rd9671 Guest

    It seems that people "forget" about me until they need me to do something for them. Nobody calls me or comes over to my house to visit - ever. The last time my "best friend" came over was in April - to pick up girl scout cookies - nothing more. She hasn't even called me since then. Nobody has. I have made the effort to go over to her house and to make phone calls. Most often my phone calls go unanswered and the visits - well, I feel like I am intruding or something; like they/she can't wait for me to leave.

    If I died today - nobody would really notice - unless there was some sort of task I can perform for them. I have no purpose here. I am very much like an appliance - use it when you need it - and nothing more. People don't ask the vacuum cleaner out to lunch or ask how it is doing. That is the level that I am at - my life as a household appliance. When the appliance is no longer useful.... it gets discarded.
  2. resistance

    resistance Staff Alumni

    Well I would miss you! I really would and I have noticed you. I know what you mean though I have had that with my so-called real life "friends". Hadn't heard from one for a few months then she texts me out of the blue asking if I know anyone who will buy something off her, didn't even say hi, or ask how I was or anything. Anyway, I'm sorry your friends are treated you this way, I know how much it sucks. Like I said earlier I would miss you and you do have a purpose. If you ever want a chat, whether it be about your feelings or just a general chit chat or if you want a friend then you're more than welcome to PM me. Take care of yourself. :hug:
  3. rd9671

    rd9671 Guest

    Since I am the only one that is going to post in here anyway, I might as well keep going. An endless rambling that nobody else gives a shit about anyway.

    You know, I guess i get jealous of some of you that have been able to form friendships here, and have people that do care and notice when you are not around. Seems this is something that is out of my reach.... and it is my own fault, I realize that. I am just a sorry excuse for a human being.
  4. ace

    ace Well-Known Member

    rd,sorry I just jumped online and saw your thread I wan't you to know I do know what it's like and it was that same thing that bothered me.Like last year I spent time in hospital twice and some of my friend's who knew didn't even send me a simple text message to say how are you?

    So I do know what it's like to feel unwanted,sadly people can be like that I know it hurts.(Ace)
  5. gentlelady

    gentlelady Staff Alumni

    rd, you would not go unnoticed if you weren't here at the forum. We may not always express that on the boards, but that does not stop us from wondering where and how you are. So many people come and go here for long amounts of time or short ones, that we are not always sure of their intentions or if something has happened. Sometimes we talk amongst each other and ask if anyone has seen somebody. It does not mean you are out of our thoughts, because you aren't. I understand how you feel about your friends and their lack of consideration for you. They should be keeping in touch with you and answering your calls. They are being rude. Sometimes we grow apart in our friendships. I have several friends that i have not seen or heard from in 15 years. Yet if I do happen to run into them, our friendship still is there. It is awkward at first, but as we settle in, it comes back just a strong. It may be time for you to make some new friendships. I know it just doesn't happen, but let yourself be open to the idea. Take care rd. You do matter. :hug:
  6. rd9671

    rd9671 Guest

    Thank you to those of you who replied. I guess I am just feeling sorry for myself.
  7. Cybrsk8r

    Cybrsk8r Well-Known Member

    RD, I've seen you give kind, thoughtful advice to alot of people here. We'd all feel the loss if you left us. You care about people and try to help them. So you're not useless. You matter a lot. I agree with GL. The fact that someone doesn't have the common courtesy to return a phone call doesn't make you any less of person, it makes them less of a person. Take care and send me a PM anytime. :hug:
  8. rd9671

    rd9671 Guest

    Thanks for the words of encouragement Cybersk8r, they mean more than you know. Like i said I guess I am just feeling sorry for myself. gotta learn to move on.
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