I am miserable. I have already started a thread on this board once, and I was loath to do it again so soon, but I don't know what else to do. I'm completely worthless right now - I can't go out but I am hating staying in, I can't do anything I enjoy and I can't work without panicking or losing control, I always want to cry but no tears will come. I can't bear just existing anymore, I don't want to have to live. Every moment is an agony and an effort just to keep moving. Nothing has any appeal to me, so I just lie in bed or waste time on the computer, and every minute that passes reminds me just how much of a waste of space I am. I don't want this, and I don't know how to make life into something I do want. I'm just exhausted with it. And this is a good day for me. Pure depression. There are no voices in my head, no anxiety tearing me apart, no fear driving me crazy. I am just broken. I don't know how to be anymore. And I'm just so tired of it all. I lie in bed hiding from myself shaking and moaning for someone to come help me and no one comes. Self harm doesn't even help me right now. I don't really WANT to cut, and I try to choke myself but this new belt isn't working as well as the one I tore. I just don't know what to do. I want to much to end it...I don't know how to convey how much I want that. I am screaming inside, and I just feel so trapped.