I just feel so completely useless and pathetic today. I can't even motivate myself to get out of bed, let alone get through the things I need to do. My oh so helpful online CBT course gives GREAT advice for "activity scheduling" and planning your day to get through what you need to get through, but it lacks giving you some advice for how to get MOTIVATED to do the activity scheduling in the first place. I can schedule up the wahzoo, I've been making lists and timetabling my days for as long as I can remember. But none of that helps with the actual getting up and doing of what I need to do. Like this morning, I took a freaking whole day off work so that I could start getting some things done, timetabled my day in reasonable chunks, one hour for this, break, one hour for this, break, by the end of the day you should have done this this and this. But do I do it? No. Being somewhat reasonable and also motivated, I set an alarm for 930 this morning (the fact that I even have to set an alarm to get up mid-morning is pathetic in itself) and I would start my day at 11, giving me some time before I began to shower, check all my usual websites and then get going. Instead, I'm getting up at 11, and it's now 1pm and I'm still stuck on the first task that I had to complete for the day. Why am I so useless? Why do I come here and vent about trivial tiny insignificant things when others are going through so much? "ooh my big problem is that I can't schedule properly" like, grow up, me, seriously. I'm so pathetic.