I don't know why I feel this way. I don't *like* feeling this way. No matter what I do, it isn't good enough. Parenting. Marriage. Self. I've thought so many times how to make it fast and painless (I'm a nurse). WTF??? I'm on Effexor...I should NOT be feeling this way. My husband and two of my kids sit right next to me and they have no idea why tears run down my face. Don't they care? WTF????????