i know i always post stuff like this. i don't know why im posting it again. i've lost all hope in myself, for humanity and just everything in general. i've been seeing a shrink for the past 3 years and nothing helps. i was doing alright for a time with the help of *cough* medicinal herbs. but since having drug tests doesn't allow me to do that, i've spiraled down into my wost depression/suicidal tenancies yet. i just dont know what to do.