The title says it all. In fact, I'm pretty sure it's pointless to even post anything here and I don't know why I'm wasting my time. But then again, why bother doing anything at all? This is just the same as any other pointless/absurd activity, so why not? I've noticed most people on here and elsewhere say they want to kill themselves because they have terrible life circumstances. Some of them are exaggerated in my opinion, but then who am I to say? Honestly, I'm way beyond that. I used to think that my life was really terrible, but I've matured enough to see that it's actually not that bad compared to others. So why do I want to die? Well, the truth is, like most people, I don't want to die. I may say it, but it isn't exactly true. I just don't want to live, either. Not because I got dumped or lost a loved one or have bad health or anything like that, because none of that has happened. The reason that I don't want to live is because life itself is utterly meaningless. The only way to have "meaning" is to make it up (relative meaning) or believe in something someone else made up like "God" or "humanism" or some other meaningless abstract idea formed out of fear of existential emptiness. (I say life is meaningless as in "absolute meaning" and not "relative meaning") Still with me? If so, maybe you have something to add here. If not, don't bother. If you believe in God, PLEASE don't bother posting on this thread because I'm talking about philosophical issues that go way beyond such weak ideas as those which religion deals with. If people have to make up their own individual meaning and/or cling to make believe, then what's the point in life? Isn't that just more work than anything? How can life be enjoyed if you are trying to convince yourself it's still worth it? Like I said, I don't desire death. But how can I desire life? If life is truly absurd as the existentialists describe it, then how can we avoid the conclusion that nothing in life matters one way or another? If that's the case, I'd prefer to be dead and therefore oblivious to everything. I would prefer not to live a life that I was never given a choice in living in the first place. If random chance finds me here, then death is of no consequence. If you choose to post on this, PLEASE do not bring religious/spiritual mumbo jumbo. I have already read some of the top theologians in the world and if they haven't satisfied me, then neither will your apologetics. No offense. But if you have a well-considered thought on this, then I'd like to hear it.