uuhhhh hi?

Discussion in 'Welcome' started by AncientAstro, Jan 28, 2009.

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  1. AncientAstro

    AncientAstro Member

    I guess i don't really know what i'm doing here. I'm 22 and i have never considered myself depressed though I feel by joining here i might be able to get some insight into how to deal with myself. Things all started going downhill for me in the 11th grade. I was a heavy insomniac and I was having trouble in school and in my grades. I have always been an introverted person but I started to notice some symptoms. For the life of me I couldn't concentrate on anything and my mind was essentially always drawing a blank. I mean like when someone spaces out and has not one thought running through their brain, but it was like this for me 24/7.

    Somehow I managed to graduate high school and enrolled in the local college. This probably wasn't the best idea and it resulted in me losing my financial aide. The lack of short and long term memory has drastically affected my grades, motivation, my jobs(ive been fired from multiple jobs due to my inability to retain any infomation) and my outlook on life. I trully feel like a useless unemployed burden to myself and those around me. I have been perscibed meds for depression but they never work and i honestly don't feel sad, more like not feeling anything. It finally came to a head and i've tried to take my life twice now, the first time resulting in a trip to the ER and the second resulting in some permanent damage to my heart and health.

    My life now is in sort of a standby mode and I am looking for some advice and mabye someone who shares my symptoms because I really haven't heard of anyone with any symptoms quite like mine!

    *ps Sorry for the WALLOTEXT :dry:
  2. black orchid

    black orchid Well-Known Member

    Hi ancientastro

    :welcome: to sf, hope you find what you are looking for here :smile:
  3. Anime-Zodiac

    Anime-Zodiac Well-Known Member

    Welcome to the forums.
  4. Puppy

    Puppy Well-Known Member

    Hi, and welcome to the forums. I'm sure you'll find loads of support here :hug:
  5. crookxshanks

    crookxshanks Well-Known Member

    welcome x
  6. Locket

    Locket Well-Known Member

    hi, welcome to SF! :hug:
    i'm sorry to here you've felt so low as to try and take your own life.
    i'm pretty sure feeling nothing is just as bad as feeling depressed, it can also lead to depression, so that may be why you were prescribed depression meds. have you got counselling to further look into why you might feel like this?
    anyway, i hope you find what you're looking for here
    we're a friendly bunch so don't hesitate to ask for support and advice when needed ... i'm sure you'll find the support you need here.
    good luck :heart:
    laura x
  7. ~Claire

    ~Claire Well-Known Member

    Hi Ancient Astro,

    Welcome to SF. Looking forward to hearing more about you.

    Claire xx
  8. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Member Safety & Support SF Supporter

    Welcome to SF,

    I'm glad you found us :hug:
  9. gentlelady

    gentlelady Staff Alumni

    :welcome: to the forum. :hug:
  10. Xenos

    Xenos Well-Known Member

    Welcome to SF :D
  11. shazzer

    shazzer Well-Known Member

    Hi welcome to the forum :hug:
  12. porcelain child

    porcelain child Well-Known Member

    Welcome to SF hunni..

    Hope you settle in ok..

  13. Leiaha

    Leiaha Well-Known Member

    Hiya ancientastro, welcome to sf :welcome:

    My name is Lea, Pleased to meet you :shake:
  14. hauntedsoul

    hauntedsoul Active Member

    Welcome :smile:
  15. AncientAstro

    AncientAstro Member

    Thanks everyone for such a warm welcome :hieveryone:
  16. ToHelp

    ToHelp Well-Known Member

    You present a most interesting case. Not sad, not manic. Apathetic? I hope you will summon the courage to PM me and tell me more. I'm curious, but certainly concerned too.

  17. wheresmysheep

    wheresmysheep Staff Alumni

    i cannot say i am living exactly the same life, but i certainly do relate immensly with you.
    i dont sleep, have no job anf have no drive. i feel void most of the time. just empty. ok i do hget some outburst of anger and sadness. but thats not what its about. i just DONT WANT TO BE HERE. no other reason for it truely. i just cannot be arsed to do it. i dont want to put the effort in to living, if that makes sense

    well welcome to the forum, and if you need to talk my inbox is open :hug:
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