I guess i don't really know what i'm doing here. I'm 22 and i have never considered myself depressed though I feel by joining here i might be able to get some insight into how to deal with myself. Things all started going downhill for me in the 11th grade. I was a heavy insomniac and I was having trouble in school and in my grades. I have always been an introverted person but I started to notice some symptoms. For the life of me I couldn't concentrate on anything and my mind was essentially always drawing a blank. I mean like when someone spaces out and has not one thought running through their brain, but it was like this for me 24/7.
Somehow I managed to graduate high school and enrolled in the local college. This probably wasn't the best idea and it resulted in me losing my financial aide. The lack of short and long term memory has drastically affected my grades, motivation, my jobs(ive been fired from multiple jobs due to my inability to retain any infomation) and my outlook on life. I trully feel like a useless unemployed burden to myself and those around me. I have been perscibed meds for depression but they never work and i honestly don't feel sad, more like not feeling anything. It finally came to a head and i've tried to take my life twice now, the first time resulting in a trip to the ER and the second resulting in some permanent damage to my heart and health.
My life now is in sort of a standby mode and I am looking for some advice and mabye someone who shares my symptoms because I really haven't heard of anyone with any symptoms quite like mine!
*ps Sorry for the WALLOTEXT :dry:
Somehow I managed to graduate high school and enrolled in the local college. This probably wasn't the best idea and it resulted in me losing my financial aide. The lack of short and long term memory has drastically affected my grades, motivation, my jobs(ive been fired from multiple jobs due to my inability to retain any infomation) and my outlook on life. I trully feel like a useless unemployed burden to myself and those around me. I have been perscibed meds for depression but they never work and i honestly don't feel sad, more like not feeling anything. It finally came to a head and i've tried to take my life twice now, the first time resulting in a trip to the ER and the second resulting in some permanent damage to my heart and health.
My life now is in sort of a standby mode and I am looking for some advice and mabye someone who shares my symptoms because I really haven't heard of anyone with any symptoms quite like mine!
*ps Sorry for the WALLOTEXT :dry:
