Other valentines day is here again as I sit here and cry remembering all those happy memories, I cannot deny.
Such a lovely day now overcast in pain as I miss my loved one in such an enormous way.
I am such a romantic and this day held great significance but now my emotions are out of control leaving me feeling so cold, empty, sad and alone.
When you push all your distractions aside, you are still that hurting and tormented soul that has lost its way.
Too far along to turn back to find myself again but not far enough to see any light at the end of this tunnel.
All I do is battle with a mind that wants to give up whilst carrying around this useless body.
Hope is a distant memory, when it left, it did not go alone.
It took my sense of identity, the ability to believe things could ever get better and the possibility of happiness returning.
When in a crisis, it always feels like its inevertabilty going to be our Last as we see no way through this vortex between life and death.
I really do not know what to do or what else to say.
I am so so sorry
I just want to sleep forever
Xx
Such a lovely day now overcast in pain as I miss my loved one in such an enormous way.
I am such a romantic and this day held great significance but now my emotions are out of control leaving me feeling so cold, empty, sad and alone.
When you push all your distractions aside, you are still that hurting and tormented soul that has lost its way.
Too far along to turn back to find myself again but not far enough to see any light at the end of this tunnel.
All I do is battle with a mind that wants to give up whilst carrying around this useless body.
Hope is a distant memory, when it left, it did not go alone.
It took my sense of identity, the ability to believe things could ever get better and the possibility of happiness returning.
When in a crisis, it always feels like its inevertabilty going to be our Last as we see no way through this vortex between life and death.
I really do not know what to do or what else to say.
I am so so sorry
I just want to sleep forever
Xx