Just to explain what causes my depression is that I am struggling to earn money for life and I am still stuck at home with my parents who drive me mad half the time. The latest thing is that I broke up with my girlfriend over a month ago who lives up Scotland and a week later, she contacted me and wanted to be friends with me. I can tell she wants me back, I think. But I do get strong senses that she is just showing of vanity and doing things like going to night clubs, seeing rock bands and such and is giving me strong inpressions that she wants me to envy her and make me look bad in front of other people. I just can't decide at all whether to remain contact with her or dispose her for good. This is hurting me even more and deciding either will be harmful to me as I perceive. I just can't see myself moving out and having a life. I feel it's going to end with me homeless and dying. I realy hate living in London.