Blehh.. I'm dreaming about trying every single nite. Dreaming about such painful crap daily. Wake up, and just wish i could opt out. I'm slightly better in middle of the day.. Then before bed my mind is consumed by pain. My family only interacts with me in dreams.. In which case it's pain. I'm reliving so many memories, far beyond recalling them. I feel stuck in them, like they're real. I want to stop remembering. Stop feeling, stop being scared. Too much to ask i guess.