Aaargh I feel as though I’m going crazy! I want to cut SO badly. I’ve promised someone really special in my life that I wont (and already broken that promise twice in the last week – how bad does that make me?) but I want to cut so much. I’ve been exercising as much as I can all day – but I have to study as well so can’t exercise 24/7. He wont even let me use paper clips/elastic bands/bull clips – anything! I have to stop, but I can’t. I can just about stop cutting with a knife (didn’t do that very often anyway), but I can’t stop the other ways of hurting. I need PAIN. Keep jamming my finger in the drawer next to me, but I shouldn’t even be doing that. Holding my book so tight that it hurts my fingers. But this is still breaking my promise. Why did I say I would stop?? I CAN’T stop. I always make promises that I can’t keep and then end up losing the people I love. And I want to CUT!! Sorry for breaking the promise. I can’t do this…..:sad: (and sorry for the rant everyone).