Ok, I snapped few days ago... Some of you may know me from this forum, may know my story... I was drinking heavily and was on many drugs for almost 24 hours few days ago... I cheated on my girlfriend, I was acting like a jerk to my friends and at the end I got into a fight (verbal) with really dangerous guys, and that probably wont stop here since I was very "brave" and told them where I live... I'm 25, in last 10 years I managed to let down MYSELF, MY WHOLE FAMILY, ONLY GIRL I REALLY LOVED, MY FRIENDS.. I have no earnings at a moment, Im complete waste... I always somehow managed to keep everything under some kind of control, but Im not sure if I'll get through this situation... My health is bad and like that's not enough Im killing myself on every possible way... Im crying for 2 days now.. I wish I could kill myself... I don't know, there is still picture of me living with my future wife and probably kids peacful life, that's only thing I want.. It'll never happen.. Im just wasting air on this planet and hurting people around myself and myself... Fuck, please I really don't know what to do..