I felt like a statue these days.
My mom told me i was better off dead yesterday. Not that it matter to me. I used to this loneliness, it made me so cut of and yet so harden inside. Every moment i struggle somewhat to make a decision. Im flat running out of energy from myself. I sure is strong able to carry through all these years by myself. But you know life isnt that worth living if you're all alone. Whats the point of it? I know i can survive, but living for myself is boring. Im so bored i dont feel like doing anything. Wake up to same crap everyday for couple years now. I endured shit like no friends at high school, not goin to prom, not to have photos taken in the year book. Im a loser but so what i so freakin jaded i have lost all interest. The world would go up in smoke and i wouldnt give a damn.
Please, someone who had in the same shoes and moved out of shit hole, give me some advice, tell me your story, i need some motivation from people other than myself, to end this terrible something i've become
My mom told me i was better off dead yesterday. Not that it matter to me. I used to this loneliness, it made me so cut of and yet so harden inside. Every moment i struggle somewhat to make a decision. Im flat running out of energy from myself. I sure is strong able to carry through all these years by myself. But you know life isnt that worth living if you're all alone. Whats the point of it? I know i can survive, but living for myself is boring. Im so bored i dont feel like doing anything. Wake up to same crap everyday for couple years now. I endured shit like no friends at high school, not goin to prom, not to have photos taken in the year book. Im a loser but so what i so freakin jaded i have lost all interest. The world would go up in smoke and i wouldnt give a damn.
Please, someone who had in the same shoes and moved out of shit hole, give me some advice, tell me your story, i need some motivation from people other than myself, to end this terrible something i've become