Thanks to all of you for your replies. I have been reading your signatures which have a lot of meaning for me. BlackPegasus, even though I cannot see your's now, I do agree with it so much. The evil people of this world do all of the talking while the good remain intimidated and silent.
Grahamd, I think it was your signature that I couldn't understand.
Anyway, the doctors have told me how long I might live. I had a massive heart attack 4 years ago and should not have lived per the doctors, but I did. Now I am an invalid, more or less. I have been for quite awhile.
I am very depressed even though I take a lot of anti-depressive medication, along with handfuls of other medications for my heart and lungs. This medicine is keeping me going. I could stop it and easily pass on, but where will I go? I was raised to be a Christian that believed in heaven and hell. Suicide is the only sin you cannot get forgiveness for, I was taught.
I am tired of being a burden on my wife. I am 55 and have 5 grandchildren. They are the only thing that has kept me going. One I almost raised. He is 10, but lives far away now.
My Dad committed suicide when I was almost 4. He was a WWII hero, but lost his mind. I am not religious anymore, yet I feel that Einstein's law of conservation applies to the soul. "Energy cannot be created nor destroyed, only changed in state". Burning a piece of wood changes it from a solid to a gas. Maybe when we die, our soul is like the gas created by the wood; that is, it is dispersed up into the atmosphere and diluted to the point of being lost.
Maybe our soul has some binding force like all atomic nuclei that keeps it together to travel to some place, or space to be judged by Him, or to be reincarnated.
To me it takes a sick but brave soul to do it. Very brave indeed.
Where do you guys think we go when we pass on?
I may should have posted this elsewhere :blink:
Again, thanks for your kindness and reading my rambling.
P.S. I was wondering if most of us were born in the winter. Most "DARK" people are......
