This is my first post in a couple of years. Last post I had I was falling asleep on sleeping pills while trying to end things with <Mod Edit:Methods:CocaCola>. My full-size truck went through a full tank of gas and I'm still here. @ Other than the stigma of the people I tried to leave behind having my note etc I also had some physical effects. Mild brain damage I suppose. I was always quick with my wit and was fairly smart. These days its gone. Without drinking or drug use of any kind its as if I'm impaired. My situation has gone from bad to worse. I'm now unemployed and homeless. I keep wanting to try again but I'm afraid of failure, not to mention I can't afford that method again.