Discussion in 'Mental Health Disorders' started by anonymouse, Jul 20, 2010.

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  1. anonymouse

    anonymouse Active Member

    I am lonely. Very much so.

    I speak so little these days that when I reply to the cashier, nothing comes out. When I say "thank you", only "you" comes out loud.

    Isolation is truly the worst of torments.
  2. ema

    ema Antiquities Friend

    I so know what you mean. The worse my depression, the quieter I get.

    People can hardly hear me anymore.

    I'm with you...
  3. anonymouse

    anonymouse Active Member

    Nobody calls me. Nobody ever did. I get no text messages. My facebook inbox remains empty. Even my inbox here is empty. I talk to noone. People point and laugh. I've become the joke that everyone preys upon. The guy to fuck around with.

    I'm tired. I've lost the initiative and any will to continue or get up. But I'm to chickenshit to proceed.

    I keep wishing that someone put a gun to my head so I could just twitch a bit or something. Make them do the move.
  4. anonymouse

    anonymouse Active Member

    I don't exist. I never did. I was just in the way.
  5. FL1

    FL1 New Member

    I know exactly how you feel.
  6. Stranger1

    Stranger1 Forum Buddy & Antiquities Friend

    I know exactly how you feel.. When I go out I wear a hat and sunglasses hoping I don't run into anyone who use to know me..Fat chance of that happening..It's been twenty years since I pushed all my friends away.. I don't even talk to my sister who I live with.. I'll answer her questions with as short an answer as I can so she will go away..
  7. apathetic_me

    apathetic_me New Member

    I know.. i do that too.... i feel like giving myself a bruise everytime i do that.
    Another reason for people to see me as unfriendly... when I really do want to connect with others.

    I'm deeply introspective and hardly share my thoughts to anyone, let alone talking. That's cos' I don't like to engage in mindless chitter chatter or gossip, guys in my class try to get a reaction out of me too, but it's been better now.. it used to be really bad in my old school when I was still living with my mother.
    Let's just say she gives them another reason to see me as trash.

    Now that I'm halfway across the globe from her, it's been better... but my personality has always been this way.. I'm just apathetic towards most people, and that's what draws some people to me.. in a good way and a bad way.
    I feel lonely everyday, I sit in the bus listening to my ipod and there's this fifth grader who threw his hat at me. When he got a reaction out of me, he said,
    "It talks!". I was stunned for awhile, I didn't know people saw me as .... I don't even know what I am to others, I know I'm not needed by my family though.

    Okay gonna quit my rambling now I'm sorry, I just want you to know that... when you're curled up in a fetal position in bed thinking of how lonely and pathetic your life is, know that someone out there is feeling the same --- maybe they even have it worse.
    You might think, "I don't give two shits if someone else out there is having it worse... I just know that I'M upset." - I know, sometimes I think to myself.... if I could meet one of those people, life would be a whole less.... hard.
  8. Mystic

    Mystic Well-Known Member

    Well...I too am a life-long member of the lonely club.

    I would like to think there are worse things in the world than being isolated.

    But I can't think of any.

    But maybe next to worse are people who call themselves friends, whom you confide in, then get suddenly bored and vanish, leaving you feeling worse.

  9. alishiainsane

    alishiainsane Member

    more than exactly how i feel always 24/7 nothing changes. its all the same i have no one and will have no one as long as i'm here i had everything stolen from me and now ive become truly nothing the only time someone looks my way is when theyre talking behind my back or shouting "unfriendly" comments my way. its a truly miserable life being totally alone. socialism is an extremely important human need. much more important then most people realize. and when that need is left so unfulfilled it can very quickly and very easily take away someones will to live. i know from years of experience. and im only just 16 years old.
  10. anonymouse

    anonymouse Active Member

    It started for me around that age. My friends abandoned me and I made new ones.. that are now abandoning me. I'm 10 years ahead, but it's sad to hear that it happens to you..
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