I am scared that nothing will change, but I am scared to change because in a way I know who I am now. The hatred I have for myself is getting more each day. I think I will end my life soon. No-one can help me or change my thoughts or change how I see myself. People don’t think how I view myself is cause for concern because I am not thin, underweight and I have not been diagnosed with an eating disorder. I hate myself. I have never hated anyone more than I hate myself. I hate how I look, how my body is not in proportion, horrible skin, disgusting body shape, fat everywhere. I don’t want to be me anymore. I hate how I am with people. I hate that I let people get to me, and I never learn from the past. I wish I could be totally independent. I don’t want to need to have people in my life. I think this is it. I have had enough. I feel disconnected. I don’t want to be here anymore.