Selfishly I am back! I am so sorry if I caused concern. My world bottomed out for a while and then I managed to crawl out of my pit and even managed to improve I guess, then I blew it, but now its all out of my hands! Stupidly I tried to help a friend and its all backfired and now the consequences could be really serious and really scary. I can't believe this is happening to me!! Its a nightmare BUT ITS REAL!!! I stand to lose everything I value and cherish my children and my life!!!