waiting to die.

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  1. lost_child

    lost_child Well-Known Member

    I need to run away
    I won't ever be okay
    escape the feelings, the pain
    everything that's drives me insane

    run from everywhere unsafe
    no where do I ever feel safe
    the thing that scares me
    is me, everywhere I go..its me.

    I can't run or escape from me
    the only place that I can be free
    is up above in a place called heaven
    maybe there I can be forgiven.

    I'm sorry that I hurt you
    all the pain I put u through
    I only wanted you to love me
    or even maybe hold me

    I'm sorry that u couldn't love me
    or even try to care for me
    you never seemed to hear my plea
    as i cried out to be free.

    I find it hard to accept
    that the secret I kept
    was known all along
    something inside feels so wrong.

    The meomeries, feeling alone
    the future, the unknown
    has left me feeling down and gone
    I feel depressed and withdrawn.

    I can't talk, I've tried and failed
    I feel I've been slienced and jailed
    living in a prison, trapped, unable to break out.
    The doors are locked, I can't scream and shout.

    The thoughts of suicidal are always there
    living like this, leaves me in dispair
    I don't know what to do
    I've tried to hold on and repair.

    I can't do anything, other then run away
    I won't ever be okay.
    I've given in, I've given up
    I surrender, life sucks.

    because I don't and won't cry
    no1 believes me, just believe i lie
    I'm sorry, I couldn't cry, or speak
    that's what I am, a freak.

    I'm sorry it comes to this
    when my lifes over it will be bliss
    U won't have to hear from me
    or even see me, that's gotta be a relief.

    I'm sorry, for everything i did
    for everything I didn't do.
    I'm sorry that I let u down
    no longer can I be around.

    I guess, they were all right
    I'm weak, stupid and can't fight
    I'm pathetic, dirty and a whore
    well not anymore.

    I'm just waiting for the day I die.
     
  2. Darkness N Light

    Darkness N Light Staff Alumni

    Lost,
    Oh sweetie I am so sorry that you feel this way. I wish that I had the words to make it better but words are just not enough. This poem is deep and emotional and very powerful. If you ever need to talk feel free to pm me sweetheart and I will get back to you as soon as I can. Take care and I love you. :hug: :cheekkiss :hug: :cheekkiss :hug: :cheekkiss :hug: :cheekkiss


    With Love,
    Crystal :hug: :cheekkiss
     
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