I need to run away I won't ever be okay escape the feelings, the pain everything that's drives me insane run from everywhere unsafe no where do I ever feel safe the thing that scares me is me, everywhere I go..its me. I can't run or escape from me the only place that I can be free is up above in a place called heaven maybe there I can be forgiven. I'm sorry that I hurt you all the pain I put u through I only wanted you to love me or even maybe hold me I'm sorry that u couldn't love me or even try to care for me you never seemed to hear my plea as i cried out to be free. I find it hard to accept that the secret I kept was known all along something inside feels so wrong. The meomeries, feeling alone the future, the unknown has left me feeling down and gone I feel depressed and withdrawn. I can't talk, I've tried and failed I feel I've been slienced and jailed living in a prison, trapped, unable to break out. The doors are locked, I can't scream and shout. The thoughts of suicidal are always there living like this, leaves me in dispair I don't know what to do I've tried to hold on and repair. I can't do anything, other then run away I won't ever be okay. I've given in, I've given up I surrender, life sucks. because I don't and won't cry no1 believes me, just believe i lie I'm sorry, I couldn't cry, or speak that's what I am, a freak. I'm sorry it comes to this when my lifes over it will be bliss U won't have to hear from me or even see me, that's gotta be a relief. I'm sorry, for everything i did for everything I didn't do. I'm sorry that I let u down no longer can I be around. I guess, they were all right I'm weak, stupid and can't fight I'm pathetic, dirty and a whore well not anymore. I'm just waiting for the day I die.