I am sitting here waiting… Waiting for a reason. A purpose. A direction. I have sat here like this for many years and have found none. Life has decreed I am to be without purpose and all those things everyone has. Anything good or worthwhile is replaced with emptiness and tedium. Life has given me isolation, despair, pain and tears. A veil of darkness forever keeping me from everything and everyone. A weight bearing down on me, getting heavier every day, every year. I can feel myself breaking under the sheer stress and pressure. Soon, I can take no more. I want to leave this prison made of impenetrable iron bars of the mind, Harder than the strongest steel, yet without substance or mass. I want to leave this life made of despair and isolation. The pain is becoming too much to bear. I have been to others, those who claim they wish to help, I have lifted the veil and allowed them to see the person inside, A shield harder than steel, leaving me exposed and open. They have seen me, cowering in the corner, in a pit of blackness crying in pain And they have turned away, uninterested, because my life means nothing to anyone. Not even to those who claim to help. Not even worth bothering, not even worth saving. Soon, I will be gone. I will leave this world with its anger and hate Its isolation. Its loneliness. I can no longer carry the punishing weight, I can no longer live in the endless darkness. I have spent years searching for the light, Of hope, of purpose...... ..of happiness. I know now all these things will never come to me, And I can’t find it in me to look anymore. Now, there is nothing left.