Well I just got home from the funeral. It was so sad. Seeing all his family, the casket.. last time we'll ever see it. Everything the father said. uhhg! As soon as he started talking about how he'd touched all our lives, and what a good person he was. A brother, a father, a son, a grandfather, a friend, a mentor. :cry: I lost it. I know he's no longer in pain.. but.. god, I just can't believe I'll never see him again.
I guess though. some stuff the father said at the service hit me, in a somewhat good way...
I don't really know though not sure what I believe
There's not much you can do except positive thinking. I know what it's like to be in this situation. Mourn, you'll regret it later if you don't. Cry your heart out. Just don't mourn forever.
A great person in your life left you, but you have to move on. I have to say, from experience, theres not a lot of great people in the world. But I've had the pleasure of meeting a few, and that gives me hope. I know theres good people out there. Just have to find them.
Just be well my friend, it comes in waves, but it will eventually pass.
I guess I hold onto the fact that those that have passed on that I cared about are on to a better place (hopefully) and they're no longer in the pain they were while they were here, whether it be from sickness, or whatever else. That hopefully someday, if what people say is true, we will meet again in happier terms. I know they'll never completely leave me, I hold a special place in my heart for those who are no longer with us. With that I can hopefully move on to a point where it doesn't bring me completely to tears.
Just today brought back a lot of memories.. right to the surface where they're sharp, like daggers.. hurting just as they had the day it happened.