im just existing. i feel like im living in hell. im in pain all the time. i need peace now. i need a break. some pills should be able to do it. but i dont wa nt to do it by the kids. my husbnd needs me till sunday to drive him around. then is my exit. but it feels too far away. i cant be by myself, i cant be with people. im a nervous wreck. cant settle down. cant think strait. im all confused.thinking about sunday calms me a little, just knowing there is a light at the end of the tunnel.