I have been suffering from depression for nearly 3 years, well 4 now I guess. I found happiness in my ex-girlfriends we broke up about 7 months ago. Since then I have become depressed again. I have been feeling weird, unusual. I don't know if I am on the road to recovery, or on the road to destruction. If the opportunity to kill myself came up would I take it? Im not searching for it, but I feel like with each passing day I am becoming less concerned with dying. I am more accepting I guess.