Hi ppls, I'm feeling very sad, unloved, and lonely. I have no good friends, I did have few good friends before, but due to many differences, we don't meet anymore. I'm at the point in life where I don't give a damn anymore.. it's not like I've tried, I haven't tried to make my life better.. but in a sense, there's something that can't be changed, which is keeping me from moving on, keeping me from not being depressed. I've meddled with LSD, meth, ketamine, MDMA, weed,..basically the drugs opened a door to depression and cannot be closed back.. This is bad.. I want to just die in my sleep.. The stress of everyday living.. just to get by, just to try my luck out, is irritating me. I need new friends, I need good caring friends.. and I don't know where to begin..I want my life back.. but..but..but..but there's always a BUT! I want to just leave this world in my sleep, just go to a different place..and be able to fly, and be free again. If I meet a therapist, can a therapist help me? If the problem which caused all these problems is there, and cannot be solved, how can my problem be solved? (I just realized therapist = The rapist..sorry if I offended but just noting what I noticed) Hmm.. I don't think I can handle the stress of life.. I'm nervous everyday..I can't relax..help me God.