There's a boy who's in my grade. We hang out a lot, and we're pretty similar. We both suffer from depression and suicidal thoughts. He knows more about me than even my "best friends" do. We talk to each other about everything (self-harm, criticism from/about classmates, etc.), and I've begun to wonder if I have some sort of feelings for him. The problem, though, is that he can be really moody, and I can never tell what he's thinking. I feel like I cling to him, and I can't figure out how to either: a. Detach myself from him and move on without wanting to die. b. Figure out if he likes me without making it so awkward that he stops being my friend. I don't want to lose his friendship. He makes me look forward to something.