I started cutting when I was 15(I'm 23 now) I'm not gonna get into my whole story. I will say that there have been times were I didn't cut as much or even for months at a time. Mainly because I'm also junkie(well recovering. . .kinda) and well when I was using(painkillers, specifically Hydromorphone an Oxy sometimes) I didn't need to cut. I've been in NA for over 9 months now(slipped a couple times an not told anyone) but I've stayed away from cutting almost the entire time. I slipped a week an a half ago, just a few very very shallow cuts that don't even count in my opinion(compared to what used to be usual for me). Anyway as my post title suggests I'm pretty much at the point where I need to do this again. My life seems to be falling apart again and there seems to be nothing I can do to fix it. Unless I go back to being my 'old' self to deal with the things that are going on. I need to move again because my roommate is a selfish, greedy, lying prick, but I digress. Anyway I just can't take it anymore and sadly I'm broke right now so drugs are not an option for me so. Like a lot of my other posts I don't know why I'm posting this I know I'm going to cut. I have too I have to get this. . .feeling out, I need the pain, I need the blood, I just. . .need it.