Discussion in 'Help Me! I Need to Talk to Someone.' started by Brokenness, Apr 16, 2013.
I am really tempted to take a bunch of pills right now. I need to just not feel anything for awhile.
I will never feel loved or cared for, I hate myself, my body is broken shell, I'm too poor to do anything or have may fun ever. Most of time can't afford food or clean clothes. Often i Cant get my meds on time, no money..There's is no hope. How can anything get better ? It just can't. I'm neglected and forgotten by all. I want to go away, I hate myself, I hate life. No one buys my art work anymore, everyone is too poor. I try to do more work, and the things I make are better than before, but still...no one is buying like they used to. I can't get a regular job, my body sucks, I have teratoma that in operable but causes mighty amounts of pain. I have migraines, asthma and diabetes. And a slight bells palsy. My legs are crooked since birth and standing long time hurts them bad. Like I said...I am useless, I just take up space time effort and resources that should go to someone else, someone that deserves it. Fuck all I have is some vodka and only handful of sleeping pills. And I don't want to try the other pills from last time, I woke up anyway and it hurt. Well screw it at least with this I will sleep awhile and my brain will stop nagging me. Found some other painkillers too. I hope this helps.
Everyone deserves a chance... With what you say, you've got to be able to get some sort of disability, as well as medicaid or such to assist you. I know that is an area some people are sensitive about, but those things are there for a reason, and you deserve it as much as anyone else would under those circumstances.
It may be a lot of emotional pain, but you must press on. Look into what programs exist that may help you, if you're being pushed to the conditions you say, you gotta seek help. Good luck, and may you feel better,
I agree talk to your doctor and get disability forms filled out so you do not have to struggle at least financially
I would speak to your doctor/specialist how you are feeling mentally and be honest with him/her.