Hello, I do have people that love me and care for me. However I can not get past the pain of losing my ex boyfriend. I thought he loved me and instead it was the exact opposite and I had no idea. I feel guilt beyond belief. It has been 6 months since he left me and I am still in the same place....even worse. He is remarried and happy to be without me as he has made so very clear. I loved him more than anything/anybody I've ever loved. I would have died for him. I have cancer and had cancer when he left which makes it even more devastating. I'm here because I'm hoping someone knows how I can get past this pain. I've heard "time heals" but honestly....it isn't healing at all. The one thing I've never lost is hope. But this is my last straw. I will also go to the hospital tomorrow and letting them know I'm suicidal. I do have things to live for....but I need to get rid of this pain first.