Hi everyone - I'm new to this board and grateful to see such a forum addressing suicide. I'm a 38 yo male, and have been previously diagnosed with depression/anxiety/ocd. Although I am on medication (Zoloft), I feel dead inside - like I am just able to muster enough energy to make it through the day. The ONLY thoughts that comfort me, besides prayer and love for my children, are thoughts of my own death to escape the despair brought on by depression resulting from extreme job insecurity and marital stress. The only things that keep me hanging on are 1) my kids and not wanting them to have to deal with my suicide and the trauma that would bring, and 2) doubts about where I would spend eternity if I did commit suicide (although I am a practicing Catholic, believe in Jesus Christ, and accepted him as my Lord and Savior when I was young). Does anyone else feel (or has felt) this way, and, if so, how do (did) you cope? Thank you so much in advance for reading my post. PMs are welcome.