i do understand how you feel
@Mvanessa i really do. i have to fight chronic leg and lower back pain, severe copd, insulin dependant diabetes, major depressive disorder, severe anxiety and other lesser issues. there are times i feel just like you. i want to give up and i want to die. i know things won't improve as i age.
but on the other hand when i can fight i can find a quality of life. i still have those issues but i also find some joy and satisfaction. if you can hold on and try to get better even a little bit then you can move forward also. i don't blame you for giving up because i know how you feel but i hope you can try to move forward in the future...mike...

