Ive not posted on this site in a while. I thought my life was getting better. Ive got a new boyfriend. I have stopped Self Harming everyday. Yet now all i want to do is end everything. Ive just had enough. I want to do something with mylife make something of myself but that wont ever happe, i want to be dead. im so close to taking an OD right now. Im not scared of death, i never have been. I really dont know what to do with myself.