Im really struggling right now. My boyfriend, well now ex who i am still in love with left me a few weeks ago. I accept that. I know if he doesnt love me then theres nothing i can do to change that. THe day he left me i took an OD. For which i should have gone to hospital but didnt as it had no visable effect on me. Since then the doctor wont let me have any of my anti depressents that i really need right now. I dont know how to carry on. I just wanna go to bed and never wake up it seems like a dream. I started hurting myself everyday. I really cant carry on anymore. I dont wanna carry on. Was getting close to another guy and now he hates me because i was mean to him. I always seem to drive people away who i care about. It just hurts well to much to even breathe right now.