That's about it. I feel unable to talk to friends and family, as they're all fed up of me by now. I've been depressed for so long, it's like "oh it's nothing new; just ignore her". No one cares once it becomes a regular thing. But seriously, I haven't felt this bad for a very long time. I feel so bad it's actually frightening me, and I'm pretty used to being depressed and screwed in the head. But this is dead, dead serious; I'm really scared. The thing is, when I ask for help, there isn't anything any one can say or do to make any thing better. So why do I bother speaking out? I guess I just need to reach out. I'm sick of keeping this to myself, I need to talk, I need someone to listen. I need my friends, but I'm convinced most of them don't care.