I have woken up this morning feeling like i have nothing left to live for. I know it's not true i have things to look forward to but for some unknown reason today i want to end it all. No matter how much i think about what is coming up i don't feel like i deserve to live a happy life. I do have the tools to end it all. I don't really want to but some force in my head is telling me i should and that my life is worthless and i'm a failure at everything, this force is soo strong today i am scared that i will listen to it. Things have been going pretty well lately up till last week with my ex which i could say was the trigger but i don't believe it is as it was my decision to end it.