i seem to have gone backwards again. the reasons being is 1. i was assaulted the ther week the third time in 18yrs 2. I am getting nasty text messages from an ex friend. The friend is a major problem as i am moving 3 doors away from her this week. I won't be able to go out without feeling absolute fear and thanx to her i have had to give p things i really enjoy so will be stuck indoors with time on my hands to think. So i may aswell end my misery now. I have the methods and believe i now have the guts. How many times can someone be let down and used before snapping?