There's nothing anyone can do. Doctors can do fuck all. Refer me to fucking useless idiots who don't know what they're talking about who refer me onto more useless idiots. With miserable months spent on pointless waiting lists with nothing worthwhile at the end. None of it works. There is no answer. Even the antidepressants aren't working anymore. Cutting doesn't work anymore. The one thing that would make me happy I can not have. The one thing I feel gives me a reason to even want to stay, I can't have. I wish I had enough xxx just to end it right now. I am so sick of fighting. I just want to stop fighting. I just want to slip away and be at peace.