since a couple of days I tought its getting more in more intense. I have asked a girl i liked and she turned me down and she likes at least 10 other guyz better than me and if anyone would just say hi to her and smile she would maybe go out on a date with them before me. I went to a dating site. I keep constantly beeing blocked or rejected. Some find my pics ugly im sure and don't say it. When i don't put my photo things get a little further for some reason. I constantly have the feeling that my life is over . im 24. now i was thinking of an easy way to kill myself. Im pretty sure no one in my family cares anymore about me. When i speak to my brother he yells at me tells me im crazy and that im always bored and lonely and that he dosent want to talk to me cause im stupid. My family is sick of me in the house. Im trying to apply in jobs but i really hate the field of studies i chose. I taught that if i could find a girlfriend i would be saved and maybe i would find a new purpose in life but it's been the opposite im feeling more suicidal since im trying. My sleep is terrible and i have a very low self esteem. the pain comes from not having the life i wanted , not having friends, not beeing able to have friends and not loving my life and seeing a way out of this. My only options were having a girlfriend and talking to my family again but i keep getting ignored and rejected everywhere. I constantly have a bloody nose 2 , and i think i may have a atrophic rhitinis du to a doctor last year that lied to me on a operation. Im not sure at 100% im feeling like this because of that but i just noticed that my life started falling from that point. I hate my face for sur and now when i see the doctors they tell me its a rare thing or its in my head.