I was thinking about taking American Sign Language classes in order to gain a useful skill so that I might be more attractive to potential employers, but I worry that just taking the classes may make me seem condescending because I don't actually know any deaf people, and that my stated reason may not be enough to make me seem like someone who honestly wants to learn it--as if I'm just using it to get ahead, and not because of any desire to work with a deaf person. I have no self-confidence or self-esteem as it is, so I find myself repeatedly imagining the first day of class and putting up with subtle or not-so-subtle hints about me not belonging, and then withdrawing from the class in shame. I'm also worried that I won't catch on and end up failing the class, but that is secondary. Could anyone who knows ASL tell me what I should be prepared for if I do sign up for the class? I'm a non-degree student at my college now, and I only want to learn it to help me get a job with one of the major casinos near me. Also if I take college classes, my expensive and unaffordable monthly college debt payments are held over until I'm done taking my classes (taking a class this semester and next semester is cheaper than making all of the monthly payments due during that time).