i want to live, have a normal life, wake up in the morning happy, go out everyday, do sport. but i cant, im not like other people, i want to live, but some part of me want to die. Only if i been normal.. Ive decided to give up this life, if i dont feel better by summer. Telling myself i will be reborn as a new human, is the only way ive survived this far. But i know its not true, its a lie i tell myself to feel better.