... I'm currently considering several options. I have recently found out about a job disciplinary that I was supposed to attend today - after the time of it. If I rewind 4 weeks back. I SH'd, and was duly requested to seek medical advice. Being awake on a Tuesday morning at 03:39 pushed me over the edge as one of my key components of my depression (my son who I haven't seen in over 5 years - his time/day of birth). Two days later I then have a friend call police on me for a welfare check. This friend knew what I had and what she was doing was unlikely to bear anything other than an OK off of it - I'd asked for her help to fund getting the necessary prescription, and that hadn't happened at that point. Since then I have not been into work. I have developed an anxiety of being in open public places, but somehow managed to get out to get necessary food/tobacco to fuel living until now. I've then heard of this job disciplinary, and I have 13 days to make enough money to substantiate living where I am. I am struggling. And I cannot stop hearing the roar of *personal edit* - outside my ground floor bedroom window. I have just placed a call to my doc, so I can see if there's a logical way to keep me safe. Although I'm not entirely sure I would want to be safe. I just wish I wasn't so... complicated.