I live in constant pain from gender dysphoria. My mind is severely rejecting my male life. I'm on hormones, but I still look like a man, and it hurts so badly. I see my female friends and how pretty they are, and I've become incredibly envious. Seeing them feels like I'm being stabbed with pain. My transition has been a failure, and I give up. I just don't want to be around anymore. I wish I had the courage to off myself.