I just want my pain to end... I'm a man who deeply wishes to be a woman, to the point that I've been taking female hormones for 2 years 1 month. But despite this, I still completely look like a guy, and it hurts really really badly. Every day I go through the pain of living as a man, and seeing women happy in their lives. Today has been particularly bad, with me crying several times at work and not getting anything done. Seeing my therapist in the evening didn't help, either. I just don't think it's possible for someone like me to be accepted as a woman. The laws of biology prevent it. I've accomplished in my 28.75 years everything that I wanted to accomplish, that is possible to accomplish. There's nothing else in this world that I want to see or do. All that remains is to live as a woman and find a life partner, which is impossible. Tonight, I wanted to hold a knife to my throat, but my judgment unfortunately got the better of me. I come here as a stranger with no place else to go. Everywhere else, and among my friends, nobody wants to hear about my sadness.