I've discussed this before, but it's been a long time. I think alot of people have felt similar. It's not so much 'wanting', but almost being 'drawn' to being depressed. Even if you're happy and ok, you get sucked in slowly by your depression unless you combat it. I've heard some say it's a sense of security when you're depressed, because it's familiar. I don't think it's the case with me. I just get depressed alot and really want to hurt myself. I've got a bad desire to right now. Just to see the blood... Sorry, this isn't exactly a very creative topic. And I'm probably wasting alot fo your time. But thank you for reading.