I'm new here. I started cutting when I was 13, it all started with erasing myself and progressed from there... 2 years ago I stopped it all... I've had minimal urges since. til now... Tonight I keeping looking around for the perfect object... I've tried journaling, its just not helping... I tried to talk to someone and they told me I pretty much have no reason to feel this way, things in my life aren't that bad... So I searched the net for a place to go to talk this out anonymously, cause obviously the people in my daily life won't be too big of a help... I am craving the sharp release of the emotion I hold inside but can't get rid of... The blood running down the cut, the natural high... But I know if I start again, it'll be hard to stop again. and I don't want it to spin out of control again. Does this feeling EVER really go away??