all right, school just started, major stress, meeting new people, trying to make friends. feeling like friends are abandoning me. tryouts for the play tomorrow, which i would really like to do. but i don't know if i will get in. i just want to not have to think about any of this anymore. just slit my wrists, because i like to watch the blood. and then. i would be gone. no more pain. no more worries. no more anything. i want to. i really do. but. i don't know. i mean. if i got caught when i wasn't done. they would make a tremendously huge deal out of it. so i really don't know what to do. anything to help me not feel like this anymore.